Here I am, in Lourenço Marques, waiting for my ship to sail to Brazil. I can hardly contain my excitement.
The Zoe.G – my rusty home for ten days as I sail into the jaws of the Policia Federal
May 3rd 1974
Tomorrow, I sail for Rio and leave Africa behind.
It’s the end of a journey that started in a war and ended in a revolution. In the aftermath of the Portuguese coup, Laurenco Marques simmers with a gentle excitement fueled by daily political demonstrations. Students flash their eyes and wave manifestos. Old colonials clench their jaws and let their veins stand out. But life here is lazy and generally agreeable. Nobody wants trouble and there would be no reason to expect it, if it weren’t for that old, hideous nightmare that poisons the atmosphere and haunts the sleep of white men all over southern Africa, a dream of black men in tribal frenzy swarming through the jungle night thirsting for colonial blood. That is what distinguishes between life in the north and south of the Zambesi.
I spent six weeks and dawdled 4000 miles in Kenya, Tanzania and Zambia from the hot and thorny dustlands of the north to the ranches and mealie fields of the south. I met doctors, businessmen, farmers, missionaries, govt. advisors, teachers, all sorts. There were complaints, of course. Grumbling about shortages, and endless stories of African follies and inefficiency. But I did not meet a single European among the 37 I spent time with who wanted to leave. Nor did I meet an African anxious to see them go. They are known to each other now. For them, African and European alike, Idi Amin is a tragi-comic aberration, a black Mussolini.
[Amin was President of Uganda. His regime was noted for the sheer scale of its brutality.]
South of the border all this changes. There is fear and pugnacity. Endless talk of terrorists and racial problems. Amin is the universal example of what to expect from African rule. Time and again I was asked what trouble I had had in the north. Disbelief, even disappointment that I had had none. The first white man I met in Rhodesia was a butcher at Victoria Falls. He sold me a fine fillet steak for 15 new pence and said: “Surely you believe as I do that we are the victims of a world-wide communist conspiracy.”
[White Southern Rhodesia, still nominally part of the British Empire, was holding out against Black independence.]
Travelling alone on a motorcycle along a vast and unfamiliar continent seemed a hazardous enterprise. The prospect frightened me more than I dared to admit. When the Middle-East war broke out on the very day I left London it seemed like the worst omen. Now, 14,000 miles and seven months later I know this is the most rewarding adventure a man could hope for. My faith in human generosity has never been higher. I doubt there is any individual, sage or savage, I would not look to for help.
Alone, dusty, tired, unarmed and openhanded I have found no-one who would refuse me. Long after I stopped thinking of myself as a hero I have received endless respect, envy, and compliments on my “guts.” Perhaps I’ve been lucky, perhaps more cautious than I realise, but I conclude that whatever safety there may be in numbers, it doesn’t rival the impunity of a man on his own in a good frame of mind.
Only once did my journey look like coming to a sudden end. When four men manhandling the bike between two ferry boats, came within an ace of dropping it and its precious load to the bottom of the Nile.
Everywhere the way has been opened to me. My entry into Egypt was a positive triumph. It should never have been allowed. Every consul en route insisted it was impossible. The 1000 miles of highway from Tripoli to the border buzzed with soldiers and police. Countless times I was stopped and my passport examined (sometimes upside down), My visa expressly forbade me to cross the frontier overland. Yet I was welcomed as though the Egyptian army was expecting me and I was whisked through the most complicated formalities I’ve ever known with a glass of tea in my hand. My joy was so great that I became careless. Later that night I lost all my loose cash and papers on the road outside Marsa Matruh. A genuine disaster, but after two hours combing the road I found the all-important documents under a bush where a thief had discarded them. The £20 in cash was gone, but my relief was too great for it to matter.
On the recently tarred “hell run” from Dar es Salaam to Lusaka I overtook Chinese convoys by the dozen – olive-green trucks stenciled with Chinese ideograms – and caught glimpses of the railway they are building to link the copper belt with the East Coast. It was as neat and picturesque as an oriental print. Chinese labourers in straw hats, caricatures of inscrutability, were working on the gradients and viaducts in their hundreds, but they were the only people in Africa with whom I could make no contact.
At Victoria Falls I tried to break the blockade by riding across the Livingstone Bridge but I was firmly repulsed and had to take the usual 100 mile loop round into Botswana and back to Rhodesia. At the Kazangula ferry I met a party of South Africans crossing into Zambia on South African passports. Later, in South Africa, this news was met with astonishment. Most South Africans are convinced that their passports have made them prisoners in their own country. A trip to Zambia would do them a world of good.
Ironically it was the South African border that gave me the most trouble. First I was declared a “prohibited person” for not carrying a return ticket, in spite of liberal proof that I meant to travel on around the world. I was forced to lend the government £220, interest free, but there was more to come. I was carrying a sword, a quixotic mission for a friend in Cairo who wanted it delivered to his brother in Brazil. A chubby Afrikaaner wanted to confiscate it. We argued and a colleague leaned over and whispered, “Why don’t you ask your father?”
Dad was the Customs boss. They all gathered to admire the weapon, a ceremonial sword made in Birmingham, while he tried a few practice strokes with it.
“If we let you take this in, how can we stop the natives from having them,” he sighed.
Then they agreed that it could be sealed into its scabbard. I shall never forget the son dancing with pain as he splashed molten sealing wax on his thighs and his clean white gym clothes. In exasperation he cried: “Usually we have a native to do this sort of thing.”
Three times he told me I would go “straight to jail” if the sword were lost or stolen or the seals broken.
When I left South Africa, nobody even looked at it, but I had a hell of a job getting my money back.
Even so, I found South Africans to be good people – black, white and coloured. I’ve been there two months looking for a passage to Rio, and in the end it’s only apartheid, and the fear behind it, that ruins an otherwise splendid country. An easy thing to say but the only thing worth saying.
The latest issue of a South African Farmer’s Weekly advocates building a wall “like the Great Wall of China” clear across Africa from coast to coast. It’s the farmers, mainly Afrikaaners, who keep the Nationalists in power. No wonder a coloured friend in Port Elizabeth kept repeating, “Man, these Dutchmen are so stupid.”
I set out for Rio, but that’s not where I ended up. Follow my notes next week. Again, I want to emphasize these are notes just as I wrote them at the time.
I arrived in Lourenco Marques at the end of May, and made contact with the shipping line that had agreed to take me to Brazil on the Zoe.G. I struck up a very good friendship with the shipping clerk, who was of Indian descent. He wasn’t sure when the ship would leave and I had to hang around. I spent a lot of time in a coffee house called Raja’s.
Walking the streets of LM on Friday evening, a mysterious and most exciting bonus. Was attracted by the floodlights over the stadium thinking some game might be in progress. Turned the corner between the stadium and the brewery and noticed a stench of urine. A pretentious tablet set in a cement block like a gravestone announced the name of the street, and it had become an unofficial pissoir for people caught short at the bus stop round the corner. There was no game, just a few players shooting practice shots at goal.
Wandered on further down to the station, and saw this building for the first time, with its bulbus baroque cupola centred over the pale stone façade, a piece of pure Lisbon dropped from heaven on the shore of Africa. A perfect example of neo-classical proportions blown just beyond the limit, like over-ripe fruit. A heroic stone mother figure, symbolically bearing the burdens of Portugal, faces the station with a sorrowful look. She might be welcoming newcomers to her colony, or she might just as well be wishing she could take a train and get the hell out of there. Incidentally, it is through this terminus that the Zoe.G’s cargo of copper arrived, having trucked all the way from the Zambian copper belt through Rhodesia.
[Breaking all the sanctions.]
According to the shipping clerk who handles the ship’s manifests, there’s no doubt of it being Zambian rather than from Zaire, because it’s being openly handled by Anglo-American (Oppenheimer’s company) So that finally puts the stamp of authenticity on all that hearsay.
Walking back up to Raja’s place I experienced one of those sudden and revealing shifts of reality that make travelling ultimately worth doing. There was a sort of market or depot area, with Africans packing up lorries with empty crates and so on. Four men were hauling on ropes to tie down a high load, and began chanting as they pulled. It was an ordinary enough scene at first, until the chant took hold. In three time, a run of four notes in the first bar, then one note, and pause.
But of course, this in no way resembles the sound or the rhythm which had internal subtleties of resonance and emphases. It swelled hypnotically invading me completely, more compulsive and convincing than anything I’d heard before, partly because it was more musical. What made me realise it’s peculiar power was that while I listened, and for a while after, it quite cancelled out the familiar European atmosphere of the city, and then, quite quickly, although I clung to it as best I could, it faded away and I was left with just the hollow form, empty of feeling.
It was then that I understood how inimical the African culture might be with ours – and how miserable we should all be if that sound were to fade forever, as it did for me, and leave nothing but a tinkling Western version of a forgotten sound.
Raja’s café chairs have pneumatic seats, like Citroen suspension in reverse. You sit and it lowers you gently a couple of inches.
[Wanting to buy a pair of shoes I met the white owner of the shop and he invited me to a drink at his club. He had had been called up to fight the Frelimo, and told me about it I managed to get it down on paper.]
“It’s bladdy three and a half years. That’s a bladdy long time. Bladdy two and a half years in sequence. I tell you. We were losing men all the bladdy time, man. Maybe one man a day. Well, there’s maybe four bladdy lots like our fuckers. So that’s four bladdy men a day, so in a bladdy week, or months, and for six or seven bladdy years and you see we lost a lot of men and that’s what Spinola wants to stop.”
“But the bladdy worst was we couldn’t bladdy fight the fuckers. They had bladdy grenades and Kalashnikovs and bazookas, and bladdy mortars behind, and they would kill some of our fuckers and then they bladdy run away. We could only bladdy get them with helicopters, but when we bladdy ask for helicopters, they come bladdy 24 hours later.”
“Walking 40 bladdy miles in a day looking for the fuckers. But when we find them we can’t shoot them. We got to bring them back to question. That’s no bladdy good. Not the Navy men, though. They were bladdy good. They landed and bladdy shot everything. They didn’t bladdy care if it was us or the bladdy enemy. They kill anybody. You just get out of the bladdy way.”
[Somewhere during those days my 43rd birthday came and went. Last week my 95th also came and went, but this time with great eclat. My very good friend Guillaume invited me to his home for a party, and he and his wife Estelle found a way to pack 95 candles on to a cake. They were the kind that relights itself, so it took all the pathetic puff that I have to put them out.]
Bye-bye. See you again next week.
I left the Balmoral Hotel (which is still there today) to go back down to Durban, on the coast. Before leaving I parked my bike at the back of the hotel and left the engine idling while I checked on the oil pressure, which was still behaving oddly.
Monday, 22nd April. Kokstad to Durban.
Boy at hotel dancing to the rhythm of the engine as I look for oil pumping. He is almost concealed in a doorway – kitchen boy – hands bouncing up and down.
Monday morning, descend from Transkei into sugarcane belt, miles and miles of it. like grass magnified, leading to coast. Dirt road is short cut to High Flats. Look down on a section of country with strange contours, like a sheet of dough collapsed over a bed of nails. Innumerable small peaks of grassland with folds and drapes, all dimples, not a single flat bit. When I stop on road, passing Africans linger and watch, as though waiting for something (a handout, a miracle, a phenomenon of some sort?) Thinking – what’s it like to work in these cane fields? What a different view of the country I would have then.
Durban is warm and I’m grateful. Big port, several dozen ships in harbour. Drive straight to Mutual Beach Centre where Corinne (Peter Harland’s contact) lives – top of a vast block. Flat is smartly furnished. Her ex-husband is there, and her daughter. Drink too much coffee. Smoke too much, talk over the same topics, trying to make them sound bright and novel. What is there to see in Durban? She says it looks very attractive, but there’s nothing there. That same false allure that all cities show.
On to Gillits, 23 miles inland on the Moritzburg freeway. [I had promised my London agent, Pat Kavanaugh, that I would visit her mother.]
Pat’s mother and her husband, Sidney O’Brien, a pilot in the harbour. Nice man – a bit of Bill in him. [Bill was my stepfather]. Pat has many of her mother’s features and mannerisms. See the photograph on the cover of a Cruise O’Brien hotch-potch about Ireland. Stunning picture. Son Mike is spotty, stiff, awkward, enthusiastic, archeological, keen on looking things up. We try to locate the Karoo bird, but result is inconclusive. [A bird I saw somewhere coming south.]
I’m very tired, fragmented, spent. Grateful for hospitality.
Tuesday, 23rd. Gillits to Piet Retief.
Call at Renolds for chain. [Another sponsor: Lucky to find one at Gillits]
Then climb up escarpment, through rock-strewn, rising and falling, ground. First time in South Africa see Africans in full tribal dress – the Ndebele, I think. Women wear hats of bright cloth stretched over discs, coloured aprons, bangles on arms, legs, neck.
The scene reminded me of:
(a) An imaginary idea of red Indians living in their country
(b) Pastoral 18th Century paintings. Remember huts on platforms carved out of hillsides; the proportions of the rocks, the ring of outcropped sandstone holding life and sun in a benevolent bowl. Cascading landscape.
Keate’s drift; orange and apple sellers at roadside. Pix.
[I’ve lost those pictures. They may have been spoiled by the police, later in Fortalesa. There’s no mention of my going to Nelspruit for the parts I had sent on. It’s fifty-two years ago and my memory fails me. From Piet Retief I rode into Swaziland, now called Eswatini, where I stayed for a few days on a pineapple farm. It belonged to the family of some friends I’d made in Cape Town. After that it was a short ride to Maputo, which was then still called Lourenço Marques, a major port in Moçambique. The Portuguese still held Moçambique as a colony but were fighting a losing battle against the native Frelimo army. While I was there the white Portuguese government of Moçambique revolted against Lisbon. Soon after, they also surrendered to the native Frelimo. My ship, the Zoe.G, sailed for Brazil in the midst of this turmoil.]
Laurenço Marques.
Bushy faces, Jesus faces, slim-tailored shirts with buttons popping across youthful chests. Jeans slung anywhere from waist to crotch on heavy brown leather belts. Little shiny leather purses on loop handles.
Or soldiers on interminable military service with Steve McQueen haircuts. Students gather round café tables, eight at a time and fold in like petals of a flower, exclusive, intense, introverted. Primitive people face out at the world. Older people too. Find myself now very aware of the extraordinary self-consciousness of young men, who behave as though they were the cynosure of a thousand eyes which are weighing every move and every expression, waiting for the first faltering step, loss of direction, failure of acceptance. (And I remember the pain outside).
[I arrived looking for a hotel. I had heard of a place called the Carlton, and asked the first person I saw.]
He wore a short, tight red sweater and flared trousers with turn-ups, the colour of strawberry ice-cream running down the inside of a dustbin. “Hi man, how you doin’, I’m sure glad to meet you. Sure man, we’re all friends here. We don’t care about the colour here. I’m just at school, sure. But I’m in the bar here, fuckin’ plenty of businesswomen. Plenty, sure. Businesswomen from Moçambique, sure.”
His face was a smooth brown sixteen years or so under a wooly black fleece, and his breath boasted of spirits. He didn’t stop talking, and his three companions gathered about him fascinated by the trick they hadn’t mastered. One was a white Portuguese with a sensitive face, despite the loss of two front teeth, and the others were whispy in-between kids.
“Oh, you want a room, to sleep. Sure, I can show you. Great place, all South Africans up there. That one you talkin’ about is shit, man. That all Portuguese shit, shoutin’ and noise. I can take you alright, maybe fifty ‘scud. [Escudos] I don’t know. It was three months ago. We were smoking too, man, you know, grass, green grass, you know what I mean?”
We set off along the streets, darkened, fairly deserted, a ragged band, and as we walked one after another they opened their trouser flies and sprayed the pavement and the walls with a wide arc of silver piss.
Across the Republica and up two blocks we turned into an anonymous doorway and up green and brown stairwell to the first floor. Two Africans sat in chairs with their backs to the wall facing the stairs with a table between them. The nearest one had earlobes with big holes in them for hanging up big ornaments, but he wasn’t wearing them tonight being in his business suit. His skin was hard and dry and close pored like old walnut. He wouldn’t speak English though he plainly understood it. His price was 120 ‘scud for a night. For Portuguese it was only fifty, but for South Africans and lesser foreigners it was 120. That was a fixed price, h said, the same all over and couldn’t be altered in any circumstance.
I looked at what I would get for 120 ‘scud and saw four army beds in a nine-foot square cell. Each one was 120 ‘scud (unless you were Portuguese) which meant he was looking for twelve pounds a night, plus a free meal for his insects. The enormity of it had me laughing as I led my uneasy party down the stairs.
“Whisky breath,” I noticed, retained an equivocal stance on the matter. He protested that all peoples should be treated alike and that economic discrimination was a gross injustice, could hardly persuade me to accept the terms, but would have done well enough out of it, I suppose. There was a wistful sorrow at my guffaws, but I was relieved at being able to walk off with total conviction, in spite of being tired and a shade fed up.
So he led me to the place I had first wanted to go to, which was fifty yards or so from where we first met. Here I got a double room for myself with all the fixings for 90 ‘scud, and a good restaurant downstairs. I gave him 20 ‘scud because he said he wanted to eat. His white friends stood by and kicked his feet.
The Carlton Hotel and Restaurant. Next door is the Bar Luisa. Coming attractions. Portraits of the girls. Could have been picked from any bus queue, but there was a touching sincerity in their efforts to look like brides. Carlton has a separate ablutions building attached to main block by glazed corridors. White tiled bathrooms on left – lavs on the right. Said to be the oldest hotel in town. Girl bars have curtains across the doors. Nothing to compare with the Sunshine.
Well, I turned 95 on Friday – another surprising milestone on a path I never expected to see. It’s all a bonus, and to think that I might even outlast Trump!
